Every once in a while you have a conversation with a student that reminds you of a very important truth--you're not the one in charge. We were sitting in the Athlete Bible Study, and a freshman softball player said, "I just don't want to waste my life here. No one's is going to care what I made on my bio test in four years. I want to invest my time into something that lasts--my relationship with Christ." Did I tell her to say that? Did I plant that seed? Did I impart that kind of wisdom in her heart? Absolutely not! Especially since I feel like I am just now starting to learn the same lesson.
It was a clear and incredibly important reminder during this season of ministry that God is up to something on this campus and that I get to play just a tiny role in His great plan. Sure, I am called to be faithful and to share the gospel with the girls here at Presbyterian College. I can even be faithful to pray for them, but I'm not the one who is going to change their lives. Jesus is.
This girl is just a freshman! No one taught her that there are more important things in life than grades and success and boys and popularity. It's a work that Christ has begun in her heart, and I am sure that He will continue to work out in her until it is complete. What a blessing that I get to be a witness to her growth. What a privilege to witness God moving in such powerful ways in a small town in the middle of South Carolina. Mark 4: 26-27 says, "A man scatters seed on the ground. Night and day, whether he sleeps or gets up, the seed sprouts and grows, though he does not know how."
I know through my time here that growth cannot happen apart from God. I am constantly amazed when I see growth in student's lives because I feel like I am failing 9 times out of 10. But that makes it even more beautiful to watch as the Holy Spirit teaches and instructs and molds people into His image. These little lessons keep me grounded, and thank God! No one wants me running around thinking I'm actually the one in charge!
Keep us dependent Lord with eyes to see that you and you alone change lives.